I have always wanted a tree house or a fort outside. It wasn't something that ever happened when I was a child, so I was thrilled when we found this house had a playset with an upper deck. Unfortunately, the upper deck was badly braced and unsafe and the adoption safety inspector said we had to either rebuild or take down the upper part. So, two weeks ago we (Lanse) demolished it, since we didn't have the tools to do the reconstruction work. It was a very hard decision to make and we were sad.
This weekend the neighbors behind us built a really tall, expensive, and perfect play fort with window screens and rope ladders and everything right across the fence from where our pathetic demolished playset stands.
It feels incredibly childish, but I can't pass a back window without wanting to cry.
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it's not childish. It's reality. You are grieving the loss of a dream, which is a very real thing to grieve. The neighbor's (big, beautiful, perfect) play fort emphasizes how that dream is not accessible to you right now, and that hurts.
So, yeah. You want to cry. I think you should go have a good one. It's not an indulgence; I believe it is a healthy part of recognizing, acknowledging, and dealing with your emotions.
If it goes on too long, then, yeah, it becomes unhealthy. But not on first blush, no.
IMHO.
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